Is this thing on?
Is anyone going to read this?
Does it matter?
Yes, Probably, and Probably not, but that's okay with me. Someone told me recently that she thought comics were all the same, selfish (I think she also used arrogant) men who have nothing to give, and only go on stage to be selfish, to get out of the crowd laughs just to satisfy their egos. I think that's what she said, but I can't be certain, I was busy staring at her cleavage. And it was awesome.
Clearly she had been spurned, recently, she admitted as much. However, it made me think for a bit about why I do stand-up, what I get out of it? I'm not dedicating the time I need to in order to make a career out of what I'm doing on stage. Sure, I'm making some money, but what I make barely covers what I pay in speeding tickets and alcohol, so why bother? Is it to satisfy, as Tits McGee suggests, my need to be accepted, or my need for an audience to find me funny, to heal through their laughter? I don't know, every time I think about it I see her chest. Heck, even my wife said it was impressive.
I did my set last night, thinking a bit about what she said. It was a pretty clean (language wise) set, and I believe I "killed" it. I wasn't the funniest last night, not by a long shot, but I think I started that room off the way an opener should, with a lot of laughs, probing the audience to see where they were mood-wise, what areas were open to laughs, what areas would produce the crickets. See, I think about my role in a line-up pretty seriously. I'll get into that later, but last night, I thought I'd do a set that would make people actually do what they showed up to do, laugh. I did it selflessly, staying away from some material that I would have gone to selfishly (Sorry, no Justin's Balls last night) and went where the crowd went. It really seemed to work.
As for this woman, I hear she's pretty funny. Clearly she's hotter than she knows, and I'm hoping to get to know her as I work more in the area she's from. But it's that very casual comment she made, comics are selfish, going after 'free therapy' that made me think, and I wanted to say thanks. You know who you are, if you read this ever, I don't know, and I'm fighting the codependent in me that's wanting to point this out to you. I think you're right, though. Most comics are selfish. I'm glad you said you enjoyed my set, it seemed sincere. I'm going to try to focus to make sure I keep to the selfless.
